1.)  I hate the college atmosphere
2.)  No one understands me
3.)  I dont understand myself

So if you hadn’t noticed I’ve been a huge slacker when it comes to writing in here.  That’s partly due to the fact that I now have 46 residents to assist and because classes have officially begun.  Oh yeah, it also feels like a million computers around campus are breaking down left and right and I have to try and fit all that in my day somewhere as well.  Hopefully after a few weeks this will begin to settle down and all will be well.  Anyway, the semester has started out well with a few suprises here and there.  For the most part all have been positive suprises so the outlook for the semester is rather good.  After being here for over 2 weeks I’m finally starting to get things where I want them little by little.  I still have a little moving left to do but for the most part all the important stuff is where it should be.  What else what else? 

Ummm.  I really dont have too much to talk about at the moment.  I’m sure if I tried to go back and fill in all the happenings for all the days I missed I wouldnt be able to leave my room for a week.  Now that I’m settled in though I think I can manage to update this thing once in a while again.  Just gotta get back into the swing of things is all.  That’s all for now though.  Night!

John

Suddenly I think what was said in the previous entry is hitting me right in the face.  I come in here and complain about losing peoples trust  and then I go and do the same thing…GENIUS.  Well now I know what it’s like to be on the other end of things.

By far the hardest thing to come by in life and yet the easiest thing to lose is trust.  I myself am a rather trusting person and like to be thought of as rather tustworthy.  When I first meet a person they start off with what in my opinion is a rather high level of trust.  I may not trust them with my life or really personal information but there is still an immediate trust created right off the bat.  Over time obviously this trust grows and more and more personal and important information can be divulged.  The tricky part about this deal is that even the smallest break in that trust, in my book, has the potential to take you all the way back past square one.  Whether its stringing me along for $12 on ebay or holding back on what many people would see as an implied agreement, each break in trust, no matte howr insignificant the break may seem,  is a giant step backward.   To most this will seem quite obvious.  I believe that many people feel the same way as I do about this.  I say all this, however, because I have realized that breaking my trust is the #1 thing you can do to really get to me.  So many other things in life don’t even come close to the power that breaking my trust can have.  Not only does it hurt my relationship with the person but it also causes me to think twice about the level of trust I put in people. 

The short story here.  If you really really want to see me pissed off, because it rarely happens, just go head and try me! 

On to a lighter note, because that sounded really really dark and mean, I leave to go back to school in 4 days!  Oh Oh….and my birthday is Thursday! Score!

John